ഒരു പെങ്ങളുടെ ഓര്‍മയ്ക്ക്

I reached my peek, Just can't speak.
I gave you my life, you never look back.
I am interrupted by that doorbell
Its a face that I've seen before
The face I wished a lot..
Honey I couldn't reach you.

Today is another Wednesday
I saw my therapist
We talked a lot about you
He doubled the dosage
All I can think is,
One more time from the beginning.
Lets get it right.

I don't want those days to come again.
I will never talk like I did before.
Night will never end with wet eyes.
You think I killed you?
I'll never hurt my love.
Still I gave my life, my breath
The way you did to me.
But honey, I couldn't reach you.

Now, I will never do it again.
I'll never think it that way.
It hurts too much to think - now.
Let me live my life for them,
Those who love me and care.
Those who cried when I die.
But still I love you, the pain and tears.

You stayed away for an year,
But nothing have changed me.
Could you help me drink off you from my mind!
Wherever I look, I see your face.
If there is a little space for me in your heart,
Could you shake this pain from my heart ?

Then come to me, make me cry.
The heart become cloud, eyes are wet.
Please come and take this fool,
I'm fool to leave behind everything that meant everything to me.
Every day and night my heart pays the price for it.
And I am out here, stranded out here,
On this lonely road, I'm so lost won't you lead me home ?

Living everyday through this nightmare,
Without sign of waking up-
I surrender now, give up my self.
I can't bear it any more. Seems no one cares.
Suicide, the comfort that you're in...
Kill me now and take me to you.
Let me die and be free with you.

So won't you come for my rescue..
Shake away this pain from my soul ?
I thought you would be with me for ever.
There's nothing I wouldn't do to get next to you.
So I'm gonna come to you, finally.
I know someone may cry for me then,
But I can stop crying for you.
I will leave it all behind.
Help me make this my last good-bye.

Was it pain to stop the breath ?
It is hurting, but I'm happy to come here.
I see a million of starts.
I can smell the heaven and blood.
I've got the ticket to enter.
Snow white suicide,
No longer burns the flame